DIGGIN' UP LOU

Scrutinized by everyone
Eyes dining on despair
The heartburn bad acid trip
The nightly visions horrorclip
These things take time, she said
Two months
And all the heartache in the world
Wouldn't stop him now
Laugh while you're ahead
Fate does not discriminate
Better enjoy it while it lasts
Tomorrow might be too late
Just groovin' along in city-life,
not bothered with anything
The ocean of endorphines undulating
In his brain
Make your mind cum
Ecstacy for now
Uncertainty forever
Enough currency makes morons clever
Erratic thoughts as a source of
Inspiration
Hear the chatter
Lose focus
Severely wounded
Severed consciousness
Screaming insides reflect pain
Past grief
Again too late
To change my own fate
It is not fair
Alarmclock mornings that don't make sense
Somehow it seemed to last much longer than
Two months
But crack now, open now
But if there's one thing clear Then I wouldn't even know
Cuz words are failing
That's okay
Without words
Memories of most intense emotions
Go astray
In starlit endless nights of the soul
Too beautiful not to care
But cold
Too cold to touch
So I lie here and think
Not speaking much
Pushing images
Like a boat on a river
With the pole of my will
Towards the waterfall of oblivion
It's coming
Crack now
Open now
No time to hide, heed the warning
It's coming
It's coming
Who will want to stop it?
All this hard work
Surreal nightvision
Shots of death
Living is risky business
It's not the anguish of every new day
Nor the acute sense of the world
It's realising that there's years and years more to come
Of the same awakenings to cruel aftermaths
Of devastating nights full of self indulgent indolence
Shortening the days
Until only night remains
Tunnels
Lights
End
I love you
Diggin' up Lou